My friends, it has a been a bittersweet autumn for my mother’s heart.
Time is a weird, weird thing. You try to grit your teeth and get through one day at a time, then somehow blink to find 15 years has past. Weird, weird, weird.
My first fall not homeschooling has been both glorious and causing me to occasionally burst into tears. In this life, it seems like we don’t just get one or the other. Not just the “sweet” and thankfully, not just the “bitter” – but a mix of both.
I’m sure in your own way, you know just what I mean!
So I recorded a full episode (Ep 118) on my Simple Homeschool podcast to chat through the mixed emotions that have been coming up for me, and what I’m learning through them:
Bittersweet: My First Fall NOT Homeschooling
Let me give you just a few examples of how this is playing out:
Sweet: Seeing my 19-year-old Jonathan spread his wings as Lighting Director for the Jonas Brothers
Bitter: The way it twists my heart that he has a whole new (and radically different!) life that I’m not a daily part of
Sweet: My Elijah (18) starting our public school’s program for Special Needs Youth ages 18-22
Bitter: Getting public school e-blasts and being part of “the system” after 15 years outside of it (though I’m so, so grateful, too!)
Sweet: My Trishna (20) growing and using her gifts as she works at her first adult job
Bitter: Watching her have the stress of difficult co-workers and being neurodivergent in a neurotypical world
Sweet: Not having to get up early for the homeschool day!
Bitter: Those sparkly, magical moments that came now and then during breakfast read-alouds around the dining table
Sweet: The excitement and possibility of imagining what might be next for me
Bitter: The scariness of the unknown and grieving the loss of a 15 year season
What feels bitter and sweet for you, fellow Simple Homeschoolers?
However this homeschool year has been going thus far, whether it’s been heavy on the bitter or heavy on the sweet – please honor your reality of how it feels right now!
We can look for balance on the other side of the scale when highs or lows threaten our stability, but the first step is just being real about what’s there.
Thanks for letting me do that with you today, friends. xo, Jamie